Revelation by A.J. Messenger

Author:A.J. Messenger [Messenger, A.J.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: UNKNOWN
Published: 2016-08-23T04:00:00+00:00

Chapter Fifteen

This is depressing. I’m six and a half months pregnant and the future I had planned, and that of my baby, is uncertain. For two weeks now, I’ve been putting Alexander off, telling him I’m not ready to talk yet at length … telling him I’m still thinking. And I have been thinking … a lot. About how much I love Alexander and how happy I feel when I’m around him, and the way we “spark” together. And about how much we both love this baby I’m carrying inside me.

I’ve even done contortionist somersaults in my mind to fully inhabit his perspective and understand why he didn’t tell me: It was the holidays. It was bad news. It was bad news about my dad, in particular, which would be especially heart-wrenching to me, especially coming on the heels of me finding out my father was murdered only a few months before. And it was bad news not only about my dad, and not only while I was pregnant, but it connected me and my family, again, to Avestan and Malentus. To evil. I saw the torment in Alexander’s eyes when he told me. I hear it in his voice, still, every time we talk. I know he regrets it and I know why he tore himself up inside making the decision he did.

I know all these things and yet my mind still always settles on the matter of trust. In retrospect, I can see that there were times perhaps over the break that something was on his mind, but in those moments I had no idea. We continued on with our blissful lives together, unimpeded, full steam ahead, with him harboring a secret and me none the wiser.

That’s what doesn’t sit right with me, and it’s what I’m having a hard time getting past: that he could look me in the eye all those times and not say anything.

“Are you and Alexander still in a funk?” asks Liz as we sit sipping our teas at A-plus Coffee.

“I just can’t get over the fact that he kept a secret from me,” I say.

“Are you ever going to tell me what this mysterious secret is?” Liz asks. “You’re starting to make me wonder if he’s in the witness protection program or something. Or maybe he’s a fugitive? Do we have an extradition treaty with Australia?”

I push her arm. “He’s not a fugitive.”

“Made you smile,” she says. “First time in weeks.”

“I’m fine. I just need more time to think this through I guess.”

“Well it’s not like you’re going to cancel the wedding.”

I don’t answer.

“It’s that serious?” she says.

“I don’t know, Liz. I don’t think so. I just need more time. To think.”

She puts her hand over mine and looks at me with worried eyes. “You don’t have to do anything you don’t want to, you know. I have no idea what’s going on with you and Alexander to make you feel this way, but one thing I do know is that he would never abandon you and the baby, no matter what you decide.

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